Ramblings

How does one rate a wife?

What is considered a good wife?

Does a good wife always have to be understanding?

Is a good wife always the one supporting from behind?

Is a good wife one who keeps quiet?

Is a good wife one who never throws a tantrum?

How does one learn to be a good wife?

Or is it in you?

Is it already destined? It's either you are a good wife or you are not?

How long does one have before you are labelled a bad wife forever?

How does one redeem oneself after being labelled a bad wife?

 

Am i being a good wife?

 

 

I kinda doubt so... ...

 

I've got an exam in less than 17 hours and I haven't really studied anything!

I can't concentrate, nothing seems to be going in! Damn it!

Is it because I'm too excited about the R.O.M.??

Or is it just cos this is my last paper and so I've got no mood whatsoever to study!

ARGH!!!!!!!!

Well at least I don't really need a lot pf marks to pass this unit, cos I already have 45.5 from the rest of my assessment.... This exam is out of 40, so I'll only need to answer 1 qn perfectly and I'll pass.... But I should try to aim for high distinction 8? Hmmm......

Grrrrrrrrrrrrr...........

Back to trying to concentrate.........

James just asked me today, out of 10 how much do I rate Dean Guyer and I said 7.5, then he asked me so who's 10? And my mind went blank.... He told me to think about it and come up with a 10, cos if there's no 10 then my system is flawed cos wat do I compare it with? So it got me researching..... So here's a list of people I'm going to rate.....

Oh, and by the way, I didn't know who Orlando Bloom was when he asked me..... I mean I recognised the name but no face came into my mind.....

Anyways.......

                   

                                               Eric Mabius - 9.5

 

                   

                                    Patrick Dempsey - 9

                  

                                           Tom Cruise - 8.5

                   

                                         Tom Welling - 8.5

                   

                                        Dean Geyer - 8.5

                   

                                        Prince William - 8

 And yes, I changed Dean Guyer's rating to 8.5.........

As a way to pass time?

Cos I haven't blogged in a long time?

Cos the burner is taking a long time?

Hmmm..... Time time time....

Do I still have a lot of it?

Well, age-wise, yes I still have plenty of time, but if you're talking about what I've achieved so far...... Will need to really reconsider.....

So many things I want done: get PR, get permanent job, well graduate first, pay off remainder of NUS loan, research for business, look at buying house near Bunbury, plan for the big wedding, yada yada yada....

I can't start on them now! But is that just an excuse? Am I just being plain lazy? everything does hinge on when james gets his pr, and also on me finishing my masters this sem... but some stuff I don't really have to wait for those right? Maybe I should stop procrastinating and start working on my business....

Well I first have to decide for myself what sort of a business I want to go into...... Do I, as the person I am right now, possess what it takes to own a business? Do I really know what is required and am I being realistic enough? Am I just being too idealistic and dreaming too much? But everything starts from a dream... Everything starts from an ideal idea.... If it starts off as less than ideal then it can only get worse? At least less than ideal is still good?

I think I'm too contented with what I have and who I am right now... But shouldn't I be? I've worked hard to get to where I am now... Yes I still have a long way to go but surely I'm entitled to bask in everything now? I deserve to be able to just be contented and put the rest of my life on pause for a bit... Gather enough happiness and energy so that I can burst forth again...

Hmmm..... ended up writing rubbish again... Ah well, the disc has finished burning, so I can shut down the computer and go sleep now.........

Remember 2 entries ago I said that I failed the mid term of one unit? Have been feeling like shit since then and very puzzled how I could have failed when I did study and was also wondering why was it that there were questions that I had absolutely no clue about and whether the computer system had screwed up by including questions that were from a later chapter....

Well, the computer system did not screw up! I got screwed by my lecturer!!! That's what you get for not attending lectures! He had labeled the lecture notes wrongly so I had actually missed out one lecture's worth!!!!! He said that lecture notes up till week 4 were covered and so I had not bothered about notes that had 'lecture 5' on it.... Also, according to the schedule in the unit outline, week 4 meant up to the introduction to options, which was what I studied up to.....

But I just realised, while studying for the finals, that there are 2 sets of lecture notes labelled 'lecture 5' and the first set was actually part of the mid term!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND I just found out that according to his unit outline, the finals do not include the material which had been tested in the mid term, and I have just spent 2 DAYS revising those again because I was afraid that it would come out and I would not be able to answer the questions because I had failed the mid term! Damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just wasted 2 whole f***ing days!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I can't be more pissed off with myself right now...... Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr